Sunday, 14 January 2007
Alright guys.. today is sunday. You should know what am i gonna do. Firstly, i'll talk about my week. I think both good and bad. What's good? I got to know a few people more. I'm sort of closer to the person right now. I guess. And the best is i'm busy again. Finally after 1/2 year slacking. What's bad? I know something that I don't wish to know but I still know it somehow. Perhaps I just don't have the 'luck'. And that add on to my stress caused by SJ. The eleventh minute work. Exams too!! I really gone crazy last night. Luckily I got someone to talk to that time. Although I asked a difficult question, I have to wait till after exams i guess. Maybe by then I won't be able to remember. Its a question which came to me when i was in school yesterday. I got this urge to know the answer. Anyway I just feel that i'm the same as other people. I'm just like another person but difference is with that 'special'. Its nothing much more than a friend i guess. I've been thinking after i heard about the thing i don't wanna know. Am I wrong to do those things I did?
During the time when i thinking about my studies, SJ, Astro and my personal affairs, She came back again. I'm still thinking of her. Why? When my friend asked me 'If you have a chance, do you wanna be with her again?', my immediately answer is no. Then i asked myself, 'do i really still love her or hate her now?' But answer didn't appear. Again, i got this calling to let go so that i can move on. But how when i don't know what i have to put down. Is it the hatred for her i'm supposed to let go? I really don't know. But the more i think, the more i feel that its the hate that's within me. I think I hate her more than I love her. Today's preaching is about finishing well and key word is offences. When i listening to my church pastor, I feel that its because i feels offended by her. That's why i'm feeling so bitter whenever she comes into my mind.
So today, i'll be talking about Finishing Well. Well, how does offences got to do with finishing well? If you were to talk about offences in bible, its talking about skandalon and trap. Traps set by Satan. When i'm talking about this, i'm actually addressing the definition of offences in bible and to make known to all about this problem of offending people. If you were to think, those who are offended are the ones feeling bitter and not the person offending. And normally this happened in people of closer relationship.
Next, we'll look at the signs of offended person. I'll talk about INJURE. Every letter represents a word to show the signs. First, I is impatience. What do i mean by that? Its the way the offended person act and talk. They will tend to be impatience. N is Negative. The way they see things and the way they think are all negative. Like we are wearing sunglasses which makes us look at things differently. They may feel like life is meaningless and very negative things. J is for Judgemental. When we are hurt, we tend to judge people differently. We'll put a standard for them. Thinking that this so and so is not good because this so and so offended us. And we must remember that God is the only one that can judge us, not ourselves. It is a sin to judge others. Next U is unforgiving. This one is self-explainatary. When you don't forgive someone, will you feel much better? To tell you the truth, you won't feel better. You won't be able to forget. If we don't forgive, how can we ask for forgiveness from God? "We forgive others just as God has forgiven us." We must remember this one. R is rejecting. I don't remember this. E is Enraged. Means you are angry.
TO BE CONTINUE>>>>>>>
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Signed Tōshirō Hitsugaya.
